Alice - posted on 03/13/2016 ( 4 moms have responded )
Hi girls. My story is i was with my bf on and off for 2 and a half years. In the last few months we where very happy and decided to get pregnant. It took one go and as was pregnant i was very happy as was he. I was on medication for depression and stop immediately. I got very depressed and low 2 weeks later he stuck around for a further 2 weeks and then left as he said he couldnt cope. We've meet about 3 times since ( im now 19 weeks) and he has told me he still loves me but it will never work and he is done with the relationship. Im am so hurt and confused. Im trying my best to stay strong but it is the hardest thing. I get little to no support from him or his family. Im also angry bcus i have 2 children from a previous marriage and he and them grew very close and bonded. I feel he has walked out on them also. Plus i dont know what to tell my 8 and 10 year old. So i say nothing. Im breaking my heart and still living in hope but wish i didnt bcus i know im only going to get more heartbroken. I worry and constantly think about what will happen when the baby comes and i cant stop thinking about him and hope that he will walk through my door and apologise and everything will be ok. But deep down i know it wont. I feel blessed i have a baby growing inside me and tbh its helping me to look to the furture, but its also a scary furture. I wish i could except that he has left me and doesnt want to be with me. As he is not a man if he can do this to me. Help me to except and move on and stop the constant thinking. Never thought my life would turn out like this.
If anyone else reading this and has had the same thing happen to them can you please tell me how u managed to get through this ( well done if u have!) I keep telling myself one day at a time, but every day seems so long and lonely. My family keep telling me how proud they are of me but when my door is closed all i do is cry and think.
Thanks for reading