Giliane - posted on 03/18/2014 ( 11 moms have responded )
It's a cry for help!! I have two girls 3 and 18 months I had spd with my first at 6 or 7 months crutches then wheelchair then was able to walk freely when she was 3 or 4 months old. My second pregnancy spd started pain at 10 weeks was on crutches then was so severe than I was immobile needed injection every day to avoid blood clot physio was no help at all I couldn't care at all for my first one who was a toddler. My husband and I were alone as no one understood my debilitating suffering with no help alone all the time I had to send my wee one away at family abroad. Living on a flying third floor stairs I was a prisoner and was free for trips at GP or hospital in wheelchair. After delivery as they induce me at 38 weeks well I don't know how but it was worse I was a useless mother for my wee one and my new born!! I was still on crutches until December 2013 my second one being born in August 2012!! We were told by the physicians who fixed me to wait at least 2 years before conceiving again. Well with me being able to do what I had suddenly stop doing like lifting my 3 year old giving her cuddles in the street in park being able to walk holding her hand or pushing my wee one in her pram dancing jumping all those activities we take from granted when we have normal bodies. Well we started having a sex life again and one careless night well I'm pregnant again!! I suspected when I started to have those groin clack then wobbly feeling legs then mild sciatica pain for no reason oh yes and sickness!! We found out today I'm 8 weeks I'm already loosing my mobility degrading every day like with my second pregnancy. My husband and I are still sooo horrified by what happened and the fear of me being stuck in a wheelchair for good and the other psychological reasons and impact on us and above all on our first child that we are contemplating termination.!! I spoke to physio who examined my case and told me it was a realistic choice... But I still have doubts I don't want to be a murderer nor want to be back to be severely disabled and stay in a wheelchair!!! Not enjoying my pregnancy again nor my kids being depressed and blaming it all on my husband and all the bad drama that can follow... Are we right to terminate this pregnancy next week ??? Thank you for any advice.