Samantha. - posted on 07/20/2012 ( 2 moms have responded )
I am a 23 year old mom of a 6 year old and i am 10 weeks pregnant. I am about to become single, I am leaving my partner of 10 years. We have been through a lot of crap over the past 4 years. But the past 2 to 3 years we have just drifted aparted there is no conversation between us anymore its as if we barely know each other. I dont feel that he loves me or our son in fact im pretty sure he dont. He dont support us in any way at all, i pay all the bills and buy all the food he dont work but is never home just out with friends being a kid, he is very immature and im sure he is taking drugs.
The night before last he went through my phone when i was asleep and woke me up shouting about something really stupid, saying he didnt like me talking to a certain friend, he then changed it to me calling me every name under the sun, it was as if he just wanted to argue, he has been abusive in the past but ive never seen him how he was this night, like he really hated me an i hadnt even done anything. He was saying i better make sure I have an abortion, he will kick the baby out of me untill i bleed. we was having a heated arguement at this point. He spat in my face a number of times and i could tell he wanted to hit me. i started throwing up jus from being so upset, my son woke up and i heard him tell him to go back to sleep and that he loves him and mommy, my son started crying and said but your hurting my mom.
Thats when i realised ive got to get away from him. he caused all this at 4am in the morning knowing i had to be up for work and my son up for school. I have decided im not allowing my son to see any more behaviour like this i want to bring him up in a happy household. he called me today for the first time after this happened he didnt really apologise not that it would make a difference though. He just spoke as if i was going to forget about what happend i have told him im serious about it and i am going its over.
Im moving away from the area i live and dont want him to know where we are which means my son changing schools, my family also live here but i cant stay here and be happy. I am very upset as i wanted more for mine and my kids lives, just a normal life. i think thats why ive stuck around untill now. I dont love him anymore i hate him now, that night i had to wash my bed clothes because i could smell him and i couldnt stand it. I just dont know how someone can tell you they love you and treat you so bad. I am determined i can do this i am just scared..
any advice comments appreciated x