Priscilla - posted on 10/18/2015 ( 4 moms have responded )
Diane I hope this is what you want.
My daughter was sexually abused by my ex husband as a child.
My daughter is mad at me for not protecting her as a child. I have said how I am truly sorry. She forgives me then something happens and she's mad all over again. She can't forgive me.
She was around 4 or 5 yrs old.
She first told me when she was around 30. She is now 50 and I'm 72 yrs old. My memories are faded but after trying desperately to help her and wanting to look back to see what I could of missed. I remembered an incident, that now would of raised a red flag. I made the mistake of telling her.
I have been quizzed about what happened by both my son and my daughter to the point of me not being able to answer the questions and worst I change my story. I try so hard to remember. Maybe to hard when asked did you ever see him naked outside the girls door? I said yes but the truth is he had a towel and was coming out of the shower. So technically I did. I feel so stupid.
This is what I truly remember.
He is an alcoholic and I found him passed out on the floor naked in the girls bedroom. The girls were naked and had wet their beds when I asked what was going on, they said that they had taken their pj's off because they were wet. He said he lost his way after going to the bathroom.
I had slept through the night.
I remember calling his sister after he left for work and asking her what she thought of this. She said that when he drinks he often passes out in strange places. She told me that he once peed in her closet, looking for the bathroom. My girls bedroom was opposite to the bathroom. She assured me he was a wonderful man that loved my girls and would never harm them.
My daughter has told me she wants nothing to do with me. This hurts so much. I don't know what to do. I'm praying for God to help me. I can't sleep or talk about it without crying. The worst part is I know she's in pain. And I can't help her.
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