Jay - posted on 09/23/2011 ( 6 moms have responded )
My little man is breastfed and he refuses to take a bottle, I have about 20 bottles of different sizes and shapes and teats. He is just 7 months old (tomorrow).
The thing is, I am back to college on Monday, part-time, I will be doing Mon to wed, 4 hours an evening.
I should be going to counselling for different things but I don't go because I went one day for not even 2 hours when I got a txt off my DH to say that DS was in hysterics. He didn't even feed when I came in right away, he just wanted a cuddle for about five minuets first.
Now I don't know how I am going to be able to go to college for 4 hours in the evenings 3 days a week.
I feel like I am being a horrible mum. I have been feeding him his dinner at 5.15, then breastfeeding him and putting him to sleep for 5.45. That is the time I would be leaving the house. But when he wakes up at about 8.15pm he wants to feed and he feeds again after 10pm (when I should be home).
Do you think that it is okay to leave him with his dad for this long?
I need some advice, have other mum's gone through anything like this? I feel so bad, I don't want to come home every night to him sobbing but I had always planned to return to college when he was over 6 months. I just don't think that I am going to learn much when I am thinking about him crying without me, and my breasts filling at around 8pm will be a painful reminder of him needing me.
I am waiting to see if I get a 15 min break that my DH could come and meet me for so I can feed him. But my Mother seems to think that this would be worse for him...
HELP :( x