User - posted on 01/30/2012 ( 9 moms have responded )
Here it is...
I am a 32 yr old, divored mother of a 9 yr old girl. I am about to open a salon, and have some bookings in major cities to do shoots. I feel that I never want to marry again (seriously ew), nor have any more kids. I mean, the thought of those things truly makes me cringe. I even look at 'soccer mom' types and get this deep sense of pity for her.
But now, I don't even want any relationship. I don't want sex, I don't want dating, and I even go to gay bars because I feel I can go out and not get hit on. I don't look at men, and can't imagine finding happiness with one. I get bored too easy.
I want to travel, daughter in tow because these events miraculously fall on days she doesn't have school and she loves the shoots...and be carefree.
My primary focus is my daughter. I spend a lot of time with her, and even maintain a good friendship with her father, so she doesn't deal with any family drama or anything...I spend so much time with her, she never has any desire to use computer or video games...so my fast lifestyle isn't interfering in that at all.
I do everything...work, pay the bills, care for aging parents, care for my child and still make time to keep my looks up and trendy, fortunately without any help from a man. But I have beome SO self-sufficient that I kinda pleasantly see myself as an old spinster one day...by choice.
Is this wrong? Should I want the whole family thing, or is it okay to want to be totally independant and single forever?
Are there any more of you out there?