Andrea - posted on 04/11/2013 ( 4 moms have responded )
I am a 35yr old mother of 5. I have been in a relationship with a man that is very good to my children. The problem was he was not good to me. For 7yrs I was FAITHFUL TO HIM. All of that time he was not. I was BEGGING him to stop,spend time with me. Love me. What I got was fake promises,left alone, and told when to come home from being with my family....which he has NEVER took time to get to know.(in7yrs) All the special moments of my life I have been alone.I was told how I look was not good,how I dress and the sex with me was not good. I still stood by him thinking he would come around to see I was all in for us both. We moved into a house which he said he bought for my children. I told him when we move into this house this is a permanent place. And any funny stuff and we were done. I had no choice because he gets a thrill out of cheating on me and me not knowing..his words not mine. HURTFUL. When we moved it was the same things. At this time I was working. And doing NOTHING but going to work, out with my whole family and home(7yrs of that PERIOD) I lost my job on the 24th of January. The 26th he was STILL doing it. And I told him then I had enough. I met a man which he knew about. I was UPFRONT about that. And that is when he started being faithful to me. It took another man to show me this is not how you should love someone. That is ALL I have EVER wanted. Someone to care for me the way I care for them. NOT money or fame. Just love. I am not perfect. I should have moved out before meeting anyone. It was not done because I do not care about him or to hurt him. I have been missing love for along time in my life. And I did tell him ALL my feelings at the time. And time and time again. It went on def ears and a closed heart. Now and then I am focused on trying be a better mom and a better me. He is still helping me,paying my bills and helping with my children. Which I hate,only because I am use to having a job and my own money. But I am thankful; and it will be repaid when I can stand alone for children. Any words are taken with honest ear and heart. Thank you. This is NOT a new problem.