Corky - posted on 10/15/2013 ( 2 moms have responded )
July of 2012 I lost my job due to the economy. I tried starting my own business and it went great up until school started. Then it crashed. I was also getting my unemployment which was helpful but I lost that in September. In addition to the money madness I also live with my ex-boyfriend. He moved in with me 2 years ago into the neighborhood where my kids have all of their friends. I promised my kids that I would keep us here until the youngest got out of elementary school. 1 year ago we moved one street over into a nicer more expensive place. Before I was the only person on the lease agreement but now we both are. He has no kids and lots of places to go but he will not leave. So...you can imagine with the stress of looking for a job and living with your ex-boyfriend.
Anyways.....My ex-husband called me today blabbing like he always does. Most I don't listen to but one thing he said is that our boys have mentioned to him that they don't feel comfortable over at my house anymore. Of course he threatened taking me to court....blah blah blah
After we hung up I thought and thought about it....I would not be comfortable here either. Actually I am not. I hate it here. It just isn't home anymore.
After thinking and thinking......I caught myself asking if they should go live with him until I get back on my feet and make a better stable home for them.
I only have one friend that would let me live with him until I can get back in the swing of things but he lives an hour and 20 min away. I would love to live where he does. There are plenty of jobs there. My ex on the other hand would fight me in court if I said I wanted to take them. right now we have them 50 /50.
WHAT SHOULD I DO?
I feel like I am a complete and total failure. I don't know if I can only see them every other weekend.
Am I abandoning my kids or am I doing what's right?
My heart is broken and torn. help