Cindy - posted on 08/02/2013 ( no moms have responded yet )
Hi, I am at my wit's end, as per the subject heading.
I don't know what is wrong with me, but I have NEVER had such an anger management problem as I do now. I can't even explain it. The last month, with Bubs now being 9 months, I have really spiralled out of control. I find myself saying 'f$%^' under my breath, and yelling at my child. I have never sworn or lost my temper in the past. I was not raised in a home where it was acceptable to behave like this. I am just SO FRUSTRATED. I HAVE never been pushed to my limits like this in my life before. It just gets to 4.30pm and I am ready to ABSOLUTELY LOSE IT. Does anyone else feel like this? I would never hurt my baby, I adore him, but I am frightened at the extreme anger I feel sometimes, and literally went in the kitchen and BROKE a cleaning brush on the sink! HELP! PLEASE, 50% of the time I absolutely ADORE motherhood, the kisses, the cuddles, the time spent together, my bub and I have the BEST time, but the other 50% of the time, I HATE it, and I don't know what is wrong with me. I don't think I have PND because I seem to be functioning well. It's really just the last month, the constant screaming, nagging, whining at a HIGH pitch which really just affects you. It's just like, I have fed you, played with you, changed you 3 times and nursed you to sleep, we've walked all the way to the markets and back, my house is a compete BOMB SITE, and it's still not enough.