Chelsea - posted on 09/07/2012 ( 16 moms have responded )
I need advice. Non biased just logical and truthful...
Long story short, I got pregnant by a "man" who I know I shouldn't have been involved with because of his immaturity, infidelity and irresponsibility. It look a lot to forgive myself for my poor choice but I find myself still falling back into this sad mindset because I put myself and my son in a bad situation.
The father doesn't help financially even though he is working. I don't mind not getting his help BUT my issue is that he claims my son and posts pictures I've taken pretending that he is actively involved on social networks. I do feel that he does have interest in my son because he's his own flesh and blood. However, he doesn't put in the effort like he should if he was really interested.
Im a borderline feminist. So I'm not too concerned if he doesn't want to be involved later in the future. I'm more than capable of raising my son. My issue is that I can never refuse him if he ever wants to see my son.. Which hurts. I've been alone since I got pregnant up until now (My son is now 8 months old). It's still early in my sons life but how do I deal with my feelings? I almost feel regretful but my son is such a major blessing in my life. BUT it's not fair that I have to share this blessing with someone who only visits when its convenient for him.
Our relationship has been over. But i would still never just hop into bed with just anyone. BC I would never embarrass my son like that, OR him because he is my sons father. He has no problem going back to his old ways. It just saddens me because I don't want my son seeing that as something to look up to.
Theres so much more. How do I deal with letting my negative feelings get the best of me? I dread the day he asks to take my son over night. I want to protect my son so bad for turning out like his father...