Mary - posted on 06/21/2013 ( 20 moms have responded )
Hi there. I am going through the hardest time in my life. I have a 2 year old and a 3 month old baby. Both delivered by c-section, and I just found out I'm pregnant again. I know many of you would say i brought this over me, but honestly, i was not looking for a third child. My first pregnancy was a breeze, I had an emergency c-section after a 23 hour labor that didn't progressed. My second one was a different story. By 9 weeks I was already in miscarriage watch and it was very hard to think I could lose that child. I gave birth in march and by january I had already been in the er several times with contractions. I'm just really scared because I know it's very risky to be pregnant so soon after a surgery. I guess i'm just looking for a way to vent out or look for comfort even though I know nobody can tell me everything is going to be all right. Is it too cruel if I chose not to have this baby? I've read so many different things on the internet and I know the ultimate decision is mine, I already love my child, but I don't want to risk my health and leave my daughters without a mom, am I being too dramatic?