Lynsey - posted on 09/14/2015 ( 1 mom has responded )
I'm a new mom to a beautiful 4 month old daughter, and I just started working again. I am a pediatric resident and work really long hours. I have been able to breastfeed up until this point. I am thankful for this, because I do know many friends and patient's mothers' who struggle with this. I've been back to work for 2 months now, and the stress of constantly pumping is really starting to take its toll (especially since I have to pump in the middle of the night still). I work 12 and 24 hour shifts, and when I'm with a patient it is really hard to just stop and go pump. I work in a Children's Hospital, so they are very supportive, and provide me places to go, but it is still starting to get hard with all my extra work. I made a decision with my husband a week ago to start slowing extending time between pump sessions, and once I run out of my freezer store to start supplementing. Today was the first day I noticed lower milk supply, and now I'm feeling uber guilty. I know I shouldn't, and I know formula fed babies thrive just the same as breastfed, but I can't shake this feeling. I'm so torn, and I feel like I am doing it for selfish reasons, since I actually can produce enough. Any words of comfort or wisdom?