Cydney - posted on 07/21/2010 ( 7 moms have responded )
Let me start off by saying that I never thought I would be in the position that I am currently having. My oldest was having little issue during my pregnancy with his little brother and I was taking it as he has been the only child for 8 an a half years and he is acting out. He sees a therapist once a week to talk about his feelings and to learn coping skills that he doesnt have. In other words everyone has a coat of armor around that so that they can cope with stress or pain or whatever is bothering them, My son has no such thing, He takes everything personal and feels the need to please everyone even if it makes him unhappy. He is such a loveable thoughtful caring little person, it breaks my heart that I cant protect him 24 hours in the day, Well back in May he had lost control and wanted to kill himself. A 9 year wanted to end his life. I was in shock but i took everything in stride and did what I had too he was in a pedi psych ward for a week and thats when they discovered that he had a mood disorder with depression and severe adhd. They started him on medication to help him focus and it has been working but he gets all the side effects. I thought everything was looking up but 20 days later to the day that he got first admitted he told his school nurse that he wanted to die. Again he was admitted but during the course of this my job wasnt very supportive at first they understood then they wanted me to resign and I tried everything in my power to not become unemployed but giving the choice between my job and my son. My son won out, Plus he could go back to school because that was one of the stressors that pushed him off the deep end. The reason I am writing this is to first get it off my chest and to see if any other mom has dealt with the same thing. And on top of that I know that i am suffering from post partum but I dont have time to swallow on me. I have to take care of my kids. Well this is it.