Katie - posted on 01/14/2014 ( 1 mom has responded )
Im a mother of a 14 yr old son and daughter whom is 9.They have been living with their dads for 5 years in another state. i moved away because i needed a fresh start due to being a recovering addict. when i began on my road to hell i made the choice of having their fathers take care of them because i didnt want my children to grow up in that kind of environment . it was so hard to make that decision but it was for their wellbeing . because of financial reasons i don't have the means to make visits throughout the year. but i do get them for a month in the summer! i miss them like crazy!! i have built a stable life here in michigan but i am missing so much of their life!! my son seems so angry at times and i can hardly get a good convo with him over the phone which very well b because he is a hormonal teenager. i still have not told him why i left him in his fathers care and moved 8 hours away. when is it ok to b honest and tell him the truth? im so afraid of him hating me or have women issues when hes older. my daughter on the other hand is always bubbly when i talk to her on the phone. but also is 9 and needs me more than ever. moving home is always a option but im in fear of relapse. i have been in a great relationship with my boyfriend and he tells me he understands if i want to go back home because my kids come first. he also has a 5 year old son who lives with us . he brings so much joy to my life. im afraid my kids resent the fact that im raising him. im trying to sort all this out in my head but i feel relived i found this site. can somebody please help!!! i feel horribly guilty and im so angry with myself for leaving them. i would never try to get custody of them and have them move here. i could never do that to their fathers and them !!! i just really need some advice!!!