Rachael - posted on 02/06/2014 ( 1 mom has responded )
My husband has an addiction to a drug, he had it in his past before I met him, but now he is using again. All of a sudden he is awake all the time, working on various "projects" around the house remodling the kitchen the bath all for me, but never completing a project. It has made me no longer trust him to be the husband he is supposed to be. I feel like I now need to check my home, his shed, the cars constantly to ensure their are not drugs on my property. He no longer even sleeps in the bed. I have had to be the bread winner as he started his own business which would do well if he was putting more effort into it, instead, he is scattered and getting money for him with his jobs, but not enough to pay bills. I am so stressed out. On top I have a 16 year old girl with the most disrespect in the world. It is almost unliveable only I love my family and I want to see them better. I know they don't have anyone else except me to take care of them so I do. but im exhausted, and becoming depressed and always have anxiety. so I have sought help through medicine, but what I really need is someone to help me through so that I can keep my wits about me. I do not intend to leave my husband, I don't believe in divorce except under Adultary which he does not, so I don't believe to just walk away, I want to help him, but I am getting angrier and angrier and I know my ways are not helping, I don't know what to do, with everything, im just juggling so much and so worried about how to go on. I know I will but I only have my husband and 3 kids, no family of my own, so the loss of my family would be devastating.