Victoria - posted on 05/07/2016 ( 3 moms have responded )
I lost my baby a week ago today and I'm devastated. As I"m writing this I'm laying in bed after burying him today. My husband is drunk and loud as usual. All he wants to talk about is what he went through and his loss. Its almost like he is punishing me for losing the baby. He was still born at 36 weeks. I feel so very empty and alone. My husband just keeps buying and buying beers and has no regards for my feeling or the pain that I'm going through. He has his family who drinks and I'm alone,with no,support. How will I get past losing my child? How will I move on. Some people say I have to try immediately after I'm healed, but my husband did not want this baby in the fist seven months of my pregnancy, how will he give me another one. He was always talking down at me and making me feel big and ugly and comparing me to my sixteen year old niece who was also pregnant and skinny. He did more for her in her pregnancy than he did for me. And the stress of all that made my blood pressure rocket and cause me to lose my child. How do I forgive him?