Death of my 2 year old son

Christa - posted on 09/04/2013 ( 4 moms have responded )

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My sons life was stolen 1 month before his 3rd birthday. That was 2 months ago and I cry every night, day, my organs lock up and my stomach twists at the constant thoughts of all of the things I will never get to experience with him. I hate when people tell me I am strong. I hate when people tell me that they 'understand' when they havent had a child die. I don't know how I can possibly still be breathing when I am consumed with so much pain. Every ounce of life was sucked out of me when I was told my baby died. I have been to several churches and a psychologist, family support, absolutely nothing even eases this pain. I just dont understand and I never will. I would do anything to have my baby back.... Mommy loves you so much Christian. Mommy's Little Man forever

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Sue - posted on 05/11/2014

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Christa I lost my 3 year old son thru drunk driver stolen from me my baby boy light of my life I adored him ... Ino how u feel and just wanted to let u know that I know exactly what yr going thru - life pfft u just go thru the motions like a robot when in reality yr dying and just want to with yr child 😢xx my thoughts are with u tc

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Tanishia - posted on 10/08/2013

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I am sorry for your lost. I too lost my daughter at nine years old. And I feel that 9 years was way to short for a princess like her. I feel like she was supposed to outlive me. She died due to asthma. A disease I hate. It is so underrated. People think asthma is not a disease children die of but they do. My daughter was on her meds and seeing a pulmunologist and she still passed away. It hurts like a knife cutting your heart in 1/2. it feels like someone crumbled your heart up and stepped on it. It has been ten months since my Ja'Nya Nicole left. And the hardest part about her death is I will never get to see her grow up, I will never hear her sweet voice again, I will never see her graduate high school, or see her have my beautiful granchildren. That has been the hardest thing for me to deal with and give up. I had big plans for me and my daughter. But, i have had little bits of comfort over the last ten months. O ne day I was screaming in the bathroom crying my eyes out and my daughter came to me and said momma I'm okay she said stop crying I m okay. And it scared me to death. And about a month ago I went in her room to look at her things and i found tons of letters and drawings that she made for me. I found out she adored me as much as i adored her. I will always love her and miss her and wish she was here with me. Her death has left a hole in my heart that will never ever heal. But I know I will see her again. When you feel sad listen for signs of your son. look for his voice. look for him in your dreams. He will come to you at first it will freak you out but after time it will give you comfort. I know my words are not of much encouragement because i struggle daily but just remember never, ever give up.

Gena - posted on 09/05/2013

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I am sorry for your loss,i cant imagine what you are going through. My 10year old sister died in my arms and i have seen how hard it is for my mom.. This happend 8years ago and she still has times where she is in bed crying.But with the time she has learned to "cope" with the loss.There will always be days where you just cant cope,and i think its the best to cry and not keep in.
Again i am very sorry for what you have to go through..
I light a candle every day for my sister and today i will light one for Christian.

Hannah - posted on 09/04/2013

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No one will ever understand how you feel, not even someone that has lost a child. The bond between every parent and her baby is never like another. Your love for your child will always always be there. You will never lose that ache in the pit of your heart. I lost my little girl, and life without her has never been the same; but you learn to let go of the pain, and put your life to good. You learn to live for your child, Involve yourself in projects similar to what happened to your baby's passing or favorite activity. To help others is the only way to help yourself. I am forever sorry for your loss, I am very sorry that you have to live with this pain, and self destruction for what has happened. I bet your son Christian was truly beautiful and wonderful to be around. My heart goes out to you.

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