Claudia E - posted on 02/23/2014 ( 1 mom has responded )
My daughter passed away on 5-5-13. I think it was an overdose but I have waited for the autopsy report and it still has not come. I feel that my life is over and I am just floating day by day like a ghost of what I was. I have lost everything--my only daughter and I have no family to speak of. I would never believe that this could happen and my mind constantly thinks I could have, I should have, or would have. The guilt is unbearable. The last time I saw my daughter we fought because I did not want her to go home. I should have begged her not to go. I wanted to go to this complicated grief therapist. What the hell is complicated grief--for god's sake all our grief is complicated. How can someone say a mother or father of a deceased child has complicated grief before two years after the death of that loved one. It is crazy--the world seems crazy to me and I am angry and have alleviated a lot of people from my life that are toxic-- I feel so fragile and there are so many unthinking people, but there are some supportive and kind also, but I had to dump the one's who feel I should have been over the death of my beloved child six months after she died. It is so damn crazy. I would love to join her, and the only thing that comforts me is that hopefully some day I will.