Kristen - posted on 03/04/2015 ( 2 moms have responded )
I am 23 with two children. I also had another child who was stillborn. I go to school, work and of course the daily stuff with the kids. I am in a relationship with their dad who I have been with for 7 years. Why do I feel like I am going nowhere? It's hard to wake up every morning. I feel so depressed, I am constantly crying or having outbursts of anger...I haven't gone to a counselor because I'm scared they might think my kids are in harms way. I love my kids dearly, but I need to find a way to cope with this so I can get better for them. How I am feeling isn't fair to my family. Everything bothers me and I go from 0 to 100 instantly...no matter how hard I try to stop it, it won't go away. I don't know what to do to just make these feelings stop. I have said mean things to my fiance like "why did I choose this life" or "I just want to run away" ...I know it hurts him and I don't really mean it. But in the moment, I think I do it to make someone else hurt like I am. I have been skipping classes because I have no energy and avoiding friends and family because I just don't care to see anyone. I am losing wait I guess from stress...I was 115 pounds, now about 95. Any suggestions on what to do here? I need help to overcome this everyday battle and struggle because I just can't take it anymore. I'm worried what my kids think of me...it's just not fair to anyone.