Depression and a 2 yr old

Samantha - posted on 07/22/2013 ( no moms have responded yet )

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I am a 24yr old stay at home mom with a 2 1/2yr old boy. Ive dealt with depression and anxiety for as long as I remember. As I got older it got worse and after having a baby it got much worse. I've been with my sons father since I was 15 and we have had a rough and rocky relationship. To make a long story short about a month ago I snapped and fell into a deep depression. I've made the decision to come off my medications (effexor and abilify) and I've been so deeply depressed that I can't get out of bed. I cry all the time. I feel like I'm ruining my sons life because I can't be the mom I should be. Don't get me wrong ALL of his needs are always met and I love him very much. I never have the motivation to leave the house, I just always want to be alone and dwell in my disease. I don't know how to stop this vicious cycle. I want to be happy and normal and give my son a better happier life. I can't stand when he sees me cry and lately I've noticed a negative change in his behavior. He always says no and he's mean and angry. My boyfriend doesn't understand what depression truly is and he is sticking this out as best as he can and I feel like a straight burden to my son and boyfriend because I can't control this illness. Any advice? How to help myself? Motivation? I'm so miserable and can't stand to see my son grow up with a mother like this. I am very lonely and have no one to ever talk to about this or real close friends. Any advice to help me change me life for the sake of my family will be very appreciated. Thanks for listening

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