Bjo-hommel - posted on 12/09/2013 ( 1 mom has responded )
So for some time now I've thought about possibly trying to make things work out with my daughter's father. I was with the guy alittle under 2 years. After a month of meeting I became pregnant. Things were ok in the relationship and I did what i could to make things good. I loved how I was in the country and was gonna be able to raise my daughter on the farm life. I was also a stay at home mom at the time. But the guy was an alcoholic and during that first year of my daughter's life I never saw much of him and when I did seems like we were fighting or he was drunk and I just kindof avoided him so there wouldn't be problems. We had good times but I felt alone and isolated and felt I didn't have anyone to talk to because my closest family was 2 hrs away. Well a couple weeks before my daughter's birthday things got really bad and I ended up moving out. About a month later I met this amazing guy at my sister's wedding. We talked, then started hanging out and eventually moved in together. I felt so happy and felt such a great connection with the guy and he loved my daughter like his own. I had a job and was having more of a social life. But this guy had opposite interests than me and I felt one day it might affect us. But despite that we always made things work and we happy with our lives together. I felt that I wasn't doing the right thing for my daughter being with a different guy and felt I should try to work things out with her father. So after I talked to him and he said he also wanted to try to work things out I left the life that I came to love to try to make a happy life for my daugher. I've been here about a month now and I feel I possibly made the wrong decision. I miss the guy I love so much and I feel I lost what could have been a great life for me. I feel alone again and very heart broken. I will be glad if things did work out between the baby daddy and me but I'm afraid he will go back to the guy he was or that it won't be the kind of relationship I desire. I don't feel the spark with this guy like I did with the other and everything just felt so right. Did I do the right thing???