Amanda - posted on 10/31/2012 ( 1 mom has responded )
I found out last week that I was pregnant for my first child (about 6-7 weeks), but the father is my ex boyfriend. We broke up almost a year ago because he said I wasn't "the one".
Six months later, he randomly called me telling me he made a mistake and wanted to make things work. I caught him in a few lies throughout the following months.. one of them being about the used condom in his garbage (we weren't anything official at this point but it still hurt as if he had cheated on me since he was the one trying to get back together with me).
When I found out I was pregnant, we had a long talk and decided that making it work was what we both wanted. Other than him going out 2-3 times a week to get drunk with the boys and breathing his intoxicating breath on me when he gets home lol, he's been amazing through all of this.
Sometimes I get upset when I let my thoughts get to me though. This is where my dilemma is.. I wonder if I'm doing this for the baby. Because if I'm honest with myself, as much as I love him and want this to work, I have zero trust in him since the day he lied to me about the condom and I still wonder how I can go from not being "the one" to making it work as the mother of his child. Am I just being hormonal and too emotional about this or do I have reason to worry?