Alicia - posted on 11/27/2012 ( 3 moms have responded )
Hi my sisters, I just joined the group today searching for prayers for marriage. I have been with my husband for over 20 years and we have been married 7. I recently found out that he had did some great cheating for the 1st 10 years of us being together. (found this out 3 yrs ago). I really don't want this marriage but I am doing my best to live as a christian and trying to honor my wedding vows, but the truth is I dont want the marriage there really is no trust and or love either to tell the truth, I know God can do all things and that my husband is not a horrible man. I feel so bad alot because i go back and forward with this, i have vivid dreams of him with woman, we dont communicate much i cant get him to share, there has been so much hurt on both sides. I dont know know to go on. we have one 10 yr old, a 18 yr old and a 21 yr old. he is the only income provider in the home and to be honest that is the main reason i just dont leave. i need you guys to prya with me this is not right for him or me. I know God is not pleased with this either i no longer want to live like this. my husband says he want to stay and work it out but i dont and he dont try what do i do?