Rebecca - posted on 12/07/2014 ( 4 moms have responded )
Her teacher thinks it's partly puberty, but something tells me that it obviously is not. I remember some questions she asked me were suicide-related. We went all the way across land for a vacation over this summer, and my 12yo asked me what would happen if someone jumped off one of the tallest trees. Then she asked me the same question again. Over the past, in the 6th grade, the counselor called her in her office, saying that she has a friend from a high school who she was contacting through messages saying that she wants to hurt herself. I always monitor everything she does online.
She's been listening to a song called Heavy Love by Serena Ryder and it sounds 'depressing'. You can look up the song on YouTube/Google. She opened a Facebook account once, I let her keep it, but I told her she shouldn't be using it until 13 because it's required. I found out she joined a group called Try To Live Without Cuts On Your Wrists and it has a certain type of people whether they may be cutters, self-harmers, or suicidal. I made her delete the group because I don't allow her to talk to people she doesn't know online, it's one of my Internet Safety rules.
She's in counseling now. I don't see her hanging out w/ any friends either...she tells me that all of them are from other schools, not from her school, so she can't hang out w/ them at school. I told her she's welcome to invite her friends from other schools, but however, I haven't seen her invite anyone. She gets bullied at school and is starting to hate school. I saw things in her journal and a few of her quotes are not getting out of my head: "I'm only 12-years-old, that's too young to die. Oh, can you explain these issues with someone if you were a real live girl, my dear diary? I cannot." Advice needed!?!