Karen - posted on 09/20/2013 ( 3 moms have responded )
Need some advice on where to start. I could lose everything if i don't get some help soon. so i am reaching out to someone that might lead me in the right direction.
I am 30 year old married mom of 2, a daughter who just turned 5 and a son, who just turned 2. From the beginning of my relationship with my husband almost 3 and a half years ago it has been a bumpy road. first with me basically trying to push my then 2 year old daughter on him before we were even dating a week, and then basically giving him heck when he didn't do something right or didn't do it all like i wanted him too, and not standing up for him when my mother would do the exact same thing. Then because i was afraid of losing him, basically making him get me pregnant with my now 2 year old son.After not being able to deal with my mother anymore due to having to pay her half of a 2 weeks paycheck and not being able to save any money to move out on our own, I moved in with my now sister in law and mad him move over as well, when he had told me it was not a good idea in the first place. Then when he would try to go and have some guy time with him friends i would give him heck for it, but right after he walked out the door i left with the person i said i wasn't talking to(my mother) because she had basically told me i was a bad mother and not a very good person. Then after having a blow up with him and as well as his sister and her husband, me and my then 3 year old daughter moved in with his mom. which is where he said i should have tried to come in the first place.
At this point, he was working and everything was going well, until he would try to go out with his friends, then i would give him hell and make him fell bad about leaving, even though he spend most of his time with me and my daughter and does everything for us. then if things weren't bad enough i started talking to an ex about old times and lying to him about everything. but the bad thing is still to this day there are lies and deceit only from one party (ME) Even when he tells me to back off, i keep pushing and pushing. Even after we seperated for 6 months, but the only reason we got back together was because of more lies and deceit. I don't want to lose my husband and my marriage, but he tells me he will leave if i don't start treating people right, what do i do??