Amanda - posted on 03/14/2016 ( 4 moms have responded )
I have an amazing daughter who will be 3 in May and I just found out last week that I'm pregnant with our second child. I am devastated. I can't say this pregnancy wasn't planned, because I did stop using contraceptives last month. My husband wanted another child so I thought, ok we'll give it a shot since I'm not getting any younger (I'm 30). It took us over a year to conceive our daughter, so I really thought I had time to mentally prepare, however that wasn't the case! Ever since I found out I'm pregnant, I feel like I'm grieving my daughter. She's so much fun, learning and absorbing everything. I feel like having another child will hurt her. I've cried ever since I've found out, I look at my daughter and think "how could I have done this to her?!?" I break out in tears when I'm watching her play, how can I take time away from her? She has a play room upstairs that will have to be turned in to a baby's room. We have a finished basement and will be her new playroom, but in the back of my mind, I think "I'm just tossing her in the basement". My husband watches me cry and tries to assure me it'll be fine but it's gotten to the point he's actually apologizing, which makes me feel even worse. I'm putting off going to the doctor, I just don't want to believe it's real. Someone please tell me I'm not alone...or crazy.