Terri - posted on 07/20/2013 ( 4 moms have responded )
I started a family very young, at the age of 18. I am the mother of two adult children and one teenager. I just turned 40-years-old last month, and I feel no younger than 60. I understand that my weariness is partly due to juggling an overactive lifestyle over the last two decades as a mother, a wife, an educator, a full-time student, community volunteer, a public speaker, screenwriter and a published literary writer. I have a few health issues that also contribute to my fatigue - fibromyalgia, IBS and anemia, to name a few. But it seems as though my life is falling apart at the age of 40: I was laid off from my job; there have been three deaths in my family in the last 2 months; I'm headed toward divorce; I have no health insurance; I'm about to lose my home that I've owned for 14 years; the engine in my car blew up; and I recently underwent surgery to have tumors removed. Most days, I hate to look at myself in the mirror, and I spend at least 20 hours a day locked up in my room. Even with a Masters of Arts in Education degree, employment is difficult to obtain. Creative and freelance writing isn't putting food on the table.
People that don't know me suppose that I'm on top of the world and I'm living this glamorous life after reading my biography, learning about my life and all that I have accomplished in my career as a writer. From the outside looking in, I must admit that if I weren't me, I would probably assume the same thing. Everyone believes that I have it all together, but little do they know, my life is in shambles.
I really believe that I'm falling into a depression. I don't know what direction to turn?