Steampunk - posted on 07/28/2013 ( 40 moms have responded )
I've spent the last two weekends with my BFF and her family. We've known each other a decade and a half. I consider them family. But I am developing romantic feelings toward her husband. He and I have always been confidants as our personalities are much more alike than his and hers or hers and mine. And he's always been very touchy-feely with me. But the last two weekends were subtly different. My BFF kept coming up for reasons why he and I should be alone. And she kept encouraging him to be physically affectionate with me. I just drove home very, very confused.
I do not fall in love easily. I was sexually, physically, and emotionally abused as a child. I trust a small handful of people (including my BFF and her husband). I don't sleep around either. I am demisexual and need an emotional attachment to feel desire. It is very rare for me to "get wound up" or feel moony. I didn't even trust myself to have a glass of wine in his presence last night.
What do I do?