Kelly - posted on 08/27/2013 ( 1 mom has responded )
I am a stay home for last 4years to 4yr old and 1 1/2yr old and have had postnatal depression the whole time. Now I feel like I'm falling out of love for their father or I already have :/
I'm not sure if I'm feeling like this because I'm severely depressed or I really have lost the love.
I am On medication seeing counsellors ect but nothing really helps depression. I have never enjoyed being a stay home Mum it's lonely n boring to me but unfortunately it's how things have turned out for us..it doesn't make it enjoyable when my kids don't sleep or eat n rebel against everything.... Am I just looking at blaming him coz my life isn't what I wanted it to be? Is the depression clouding everything for me? Will I ever get over depression n feel normal!?!?
the kids love their dad so I don't want to break my family up unless I know for sure but then how do I know? Being so distracted n full On with 2 boys n him working our lives are separate really.... I'm confused n over everything!! Just want to b happy