Christina - posted on 10/18/2011 ( 3 moms have responded )
heres the story.
my husband and i had to go through 2 years of fertility treatments to get our daughter who will be 4 months old next week. and we almost didn't get her. all treatments had failed. we even thought the last one did because the test came back negative. and our dr. told us he was running out of ideas, and we were out of money and he told us to be ready to never be able to have our own bio children. then 3 weeks later we found out the last round had worked, it just wasn't strong enough to show up on the last test, but was clear as a bell on the new test. and now we have our daughter
we gave up everything to get her. we spent all our money and savings. we put off buying a house to use that money and our wedding only cost around $600. because we used it all on fertility treatments.
now we have no regrets we got our daughter and we do not regret a thing.
now my dr. suggested that since i have healed very well from labour and my body is actully working better then before pregcancy, he suggests that if we want to try for a second natuarlly before my body might need the treatments again, this is our window of chance.
hubby is all for it. and so am i.
but my fear is if it works and i become pregnant more easily, i won't love the second child as much as our first because we went through so much to get her.
i know it is stupid to think that way, but it feels as if our first will always hold that special place because we were so close to not getting her. and i belive all children in a family should be seen as equal. i would never show the favortism, but it scares me more if i even though of them as different.
help please, i am so confused on this.
ps. i really do want a second, this just came into my head lately and i just dont know how to feel about it.