Ruth Chapman - posted on 10/04/2013 ( 4 moms have responded )
I feel so guilty all the time, as i stupidity agreed to allow the court judge to have the final say on who my children should live with and what school they should attend, as me and my ex husband could not reach an agreement, after nearly eighteen months of court appearances. now a year late, i am still racked with guilt and cant get over the fact that I have lost my children. I now live 80 miles away and try to visit at least once a month, but it is so hard. My ex keeps phoning me to try and involve me in what is happening with the kids, but it breaks my heart everytime I have hang up the phone or say goodbye... I feel like the worst mother in the world, and I just dont know how to carry on.