Carina Heather - posted on 08/18/2015 ( 3 moms have responded )
I'm very new to this, a few months ago I would of never thought id be signing up and ranting about my life but here goes...
I have 3 boys 2,4 & 6.. I've been married almost 3 years but with my partner 4 and a half, we met when my 1st was 2 & my 2nd child was 5 months, id separated from their dad due to being cheated on, anyways I was on my own for over a year and whilst pregnant with my second before meeting my now husband (gosh that sounds confusing) after a rough few years before I was fresh and ready for my new relationship, started off perfect but soon I started to realise his bad faults like constantly going out drinking and letting me and my children down, he would then apologise and tell me he would stop it but it continued for 4 years on and off. We've had a lot of good times but they were soon overruled by the bad. These past 6 months I've felt so invisible (he works away then when he's back it wont be any more than a day or so until he's down the pub with friends( sometimes not coming home, he would stay at a friends house. I then had a gut instinct he was doing drugs because he started to look different as well as act different, he denied it, friends denied it until, I hacked into his facebook. Very unlike me. But I found out my suspicion's were true. I split with him and at the moment I'm very much on my own, I have one friend who at the moment has started a new relationship so I rarely hear from her, he is nice one minute but then he will snap the next threatening I must leave hos mortgaged house (which I refused to put my name on due to a number of reasons ) he's taking his daughter from a past relationship abroad tomorrow (I feel its hin being spiteful to me but hey ho) I'm having to claim income support etc due to him taking my name off the joint account since we split & I'm on now on the council list which doesn't seem to be doing much. I'm sorry for the rant,I feel angry, sad, worthless and just on an all time low at the moment, my three boys are keeping me grounded and very busy but I just cant shake this hopeless feeling. Has anyone been through the same? I've fought so hard for us to work but he's chucked it on my face constantly. I just don't know what to do anymore.. Sorry to bore you all xx