Samantha - posted on 11/14/2013 ( 2 moms have responded )
I am five months pregnant with my first child, a baby girl I'm naming Olivia. For the past year I have been on/off with her father, a guy whom I thought was the total package and fell instantly for. Seven months into our relationship, he abruptly left me to "make things work with his son's mother". I was crushed, devastated, and so angry. His son's mother had made his life hell for almost three years, was 11 years older than him and now he was running back to her. Long story short, the summer was hell, we were back together one week, broken up again the next. I got pregnant fourth of July weekend. I told him when I found out in August. Thats when this downward spiral started. He ignored me for a month, told his GF the baby wasnt his after I contacted her, letting her know what had been happening. Then suddenly it was back to "I need you back in my life, I need to make a decision as to who I want to be with". We had been working things out, slowly getting back together when suddenly after he made the decision to cut ties with her and dedicate himself to his son, our child and myself...he said he "just couldnt do it". So now he's back with her, and back to treating me like crap. I was never anything but good to him, even now, when I beg to spend time with him and subject myself to spending hours at his house surrounded by her things and being kicked out after spending the night because "she gets off work at 7 and comes over". This situation is killing me. I stay and endure because I have this picture in my head of being a happy family with him, our baby and his son, but he gets my hopes up one day that that is whats going to happen only to crush me the next. The things he says to me are horrible. He told me last week that "he would rather not have a relationship with his daughter and that be her normal than to take time away from his son and mess up his life". I dont know what to do. I'm heartbroken. I love him, but I'm not strong enough to end it knowing he'll be playing happy family with her and their son while I'm raising my daughter alone. Advice and kind words appreciated. I am a wreck right now.