Maria - posted on 09/16/2013 ( 1 mom has responded )
I have two wonderful children, whom I adore. But. My girl will be 4 in December and my boy is 10 months old. My girl, KK, tries my very last nerve - doesn't listen to anything, sticks her tongue out, hits, kicks and lots of other behavior that causes me to see red... Instantly. I know that she is 3 and is designed to test the boundaries. I know this, but it doesn't help when I'm in the middle of a battle (that's what it feels like...a battle). It doesn't take much for me to lose my temper and start screaming. I mean really yelling. My boy is teething and is unusually fussy and needy. I feel like I'm ruining them. I feel like I fight with KK everyday. Before I had children, I had never felt such complete love for someone; I've also never felt such rage or helplessness. I don't know what to do. I don't like myself. I've also gained so much weight. I constantly have a headache. I get breaks from them 3 days a week, but I'm still so hard on my daughter. Believe me, I know that I'm not a great mother, so I'm looking for tips on how to be better.