Alyza - posted on 10/23/2016 ( 8 moms have responded )
I have been with my sons father for the past ten years on and off my son is currently 5 years old. My sons father was verbally and physically abusive. That last incident was in April of this year we were engaged for about a month and a half until I could not deal with his controlling actions and the way he lived his life. He is a drug dealer who smokes and drinks all the time. I know for a fact he owns guns and has them in the house he is at. He always has drugs in the house. We would fight a lot because that was not the way I wanted to live or raise my son and his son. So i told him one day that I could not continue to accept his ways of life and he got upset and put his hands on me, pulled me hair just dragging me around like a rag doll in front of my son and his son. I cried for help but no one helped, i screamed outside for help but nobody helped i did not want to leave the house without my son, his cousin came downstairs and took the boys upstairs. He had called the cops on me to make it seem like i was the one acting crazy. smh My sons father kept attacking me after he went in the backyard to hide his gun and drugs, I grabbed a knife and told him i would stab him if he put his hands on me again. He came towards me and said go head stab me bitch you aint going to do shit and mushed my face and grabbed a handful of my hair so i defended myself. The cops came about 5 minutes after that and they talked to us separately i told the officers what happened im scared and cant believe the person i loved and gave my life to did that to me. When my sons father came outside to go into the ambulance he said to my face "you know i love you" like how crazy does he sound. I wrote a statement but did not go to court because he was threatening me that he was going to press charges and I did not go because of my son. I cant let him get custody of him. He is unfit. He is very violent, always said everybody respects with violents. He has money because he sells drugs so it would be like fighting a war in court. My son has been exposed to things a child should not have been exposed too. The one day when i came home from work when we lived together i heard my son call his father a crackhead. That pissed me off so much like how can you father a child if you cant filter the words that out your mouth. He would smoke weed and cigs in the house and cook up in front on my son, which always started a big argument. He would call me names in front of my son. And that is not how i wanted it to be. I currently live with my mom and she is a big help because i work at night. I do not have his father on child support because i always felt like it was going to cause a bigger fire. I told his father that i have opened up an account for our son so he can put money there for our son not for me because i make money for us anyways. I though that should have so much easier to do than child support probably not going to get shit! what like 100 a month what is that not enough to support a child growing everyday and will need funds for his tuition when he gets older. It has always been hard for his dad to work a real job. He likes to live the fast life. I have not let my son go with his father because I am afraid for my sons safety. His father has a lot of problems with people because he owes them money and recently was shot at his car has a couple bullet holes. I havent taken any pics yet but i planned to before he gets it fixed. The lifestyle his father lives with cause great danger to my son mentally and spiritually. I need help. What can I do? I can write here for hours about what me and my child has gone through.