Has anyone else suffered from post partum depression?

Lyssa - posted on 05/28/2011 ( 9 moms have responded )

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I've been recovering from postpartum depression and anxiety since the birth of my daughter in January. It's the hardest thing I've ever been through emotionally. I'd love to meet someone else who's gone through this horrible ordeal and talk about it.

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Aneta - posted on 05/21/2015

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Mrs three, what had helped you with ppd and scarry thoughts? How long ppd lasted?

Aneta - posted on 05/21/2015

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Hi sapphire, im going thru ppd and sevete anxiety and ocd, im always scared something is wrong with me, and that im gonna die, this thoughts r bothering me so much, im scared to even take meds, but lately i wonder if i will eblver get better without meds, i see u say to avoid them, what else can i do beside meds, im 6 mo into this horrible thing,

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Yes, I did suffer through PPD and it is one of the multiple reasons my son is an only child. (Please note that only does not equal lonely). PPD is very real and my advice is to do everything to avoid taking any prescription drugs. Surround yourself with other moms going through PPD, change up your daily routine, educate yourself. I wish you all the best!

Mrs. - posted on 05/29/2011

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I went through PPD/PPA. My daughter is two and during times of stress, I still deal with some of my PPD/PPA issues. I too had obsessive thoughts or "horrible" thoughts about my child. Now I know though that they are just a hormonal response to stress and they are not real. That doesn't mean they don't still pop up like a scary monster in a movie. It is just that I've seen the movie a lot and have been told it is not real, and doesn't make me a bad person/bad mother to have those monsters in my head from time to time. As my therapist says, those thoughts have an almost zero percent chance of ever happening according to studies they have done.

I never went on meds because I have a history of bad reactions to them. Often, I wish I had been able to because I truly believe it is just an imbalance that should have just been straightened out. What can you do though? You deal with what life gives you.

So, you are totally not alone with you obsessive thoughts and anxiety. So many of us have thought the same things, cried over imaginary "conspiracies" and wondered if we are monsters for the shit that goes through our brains. It is one of the hardest things I've ever taken on, but it is way better than it once was...even if it is not perfectly sew up now.

Much love and support goes your way. You are not crazy, you are just a normal lady dealing with a very nasty problem.

Lyssa - posted on 05/29/2011

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Thank you for the feedback ladies. Yes, my husband knew right away that it was more than just the baby blues, as did I. We are both nurses, and even though it actually started in the hospital, I didn't call my midwives until 2 weeks after she was born when all I did was cry or yell and scream at my 8 year old. I was convinced my daughter hated me and loved my husband and sister more than me. In my crazy head it was all a conspiracy. I had no connection with her, and eventually felt like I had no connection with my son and my husband either. I saw a few different docs and psychiatrist, and after a few different med changes, I feel like I'm back on the right track. I think now, being a nurse, of the extremely high doses of ativan and klonopin I needed just to stay calm. Having the extreme depression and the extreme anxiety had one doctor ask if he could admit me to psych. I probably should have but my husband and I both said no. He didn't know the horrible thoughts going through my head at the time though. And he still doesn't know how bad those thoughts really were. I've talked to him and my family about some of it, but I still feel really ashamed about some of it. I read Brooke Shields book about her postpartum experience, and that helped me a lot. But I think being able to talk on here to other women who have gone through it is going to help me even more! Thanks ladies!

Cynthia - posted on 05/28/2011

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their is a community here at com for postpartum depression . it will help

Leigh - posted on 05/28/2011

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I only had a little depression, but I had major anxiety. I kept thinking it would go away (because I knew it was all hormonal) and it didn't. By the time my son was about 3 months old, I would be up half the night worrying crazy things were going to happen to him, wake up in the morning with my hands shaking and spent half the day crying and apologize to him for being such a bad mommy! I finally called my Ob and told her something wasn't right. They put me on Zoloft for a few months and I saw a psychiatrist for a few sessions. My son is now 18mo and for the most part I am fine and can now look back and chuckle about it a bit, knowing that I was definately a bit off. Every now and then I get a bit anxious, but I don't think it is any more severe than most mommys are about their children. It does get better. Have you talked to your doctor? Does your family know? My husband knew I was weepy, but I don't think he knew I was as bad as I was until I told him I called the Ob.

Kendra - posted on 05/28/2011

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Yes, with both of my kids. I had pre post partum with my second kid. and post partum with both of them.

Katie - posted on 05/28/2011

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I had some really nasty "baby blues" for the first month after my son was born. Then I was fine until he was 6 months old and I totally lost my mind. I ended up being diagnosed with postpartum anxiety. Intense 24 hour long panic attacks, migraines, tingling, numbness, loss of vision, feeling like I was going to have a heart attack and die...It was easily the most difficult few months I have ever been through in my life and I have suffered from anxiety disorder and hypochondriasis since I was really young. With the help of a really good doctor (who I ended up moving 15 hours away from sadly,) 10mg of celexa a day and a therapist I have managed to get it under control. Now my son is almost 18 months old and I am 31 weeks pregnant with another boy, and so far so good. If you ever wanna chat let me know.

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