Kate - posted on 05/02/2013 ( 1 mom has responded )
Hi Ladies. I dont know if anyone can help me or if anyone has been through this themselves?
For well over 5 years I have continuously been either pregnant, breastfeeding or pregnant and breastfeeding. In March 2013 I weaned my youngest daughter, who was nearly two and a half years old. It was quite a stress on my body (which I was expecting) and a was sick for about a week with mastitis-type fever etc. Once that went away I thought I would feel great but I have really spent this whole time feeling horrible.
Within a week of weaning, my periods returned for the first time since I first got pregnant in September 2008. I now have periods every other week, and they are very heavy- so bad that I spend most of the week that I'm on being lightheaded, dizzy, unable to eat, and incredibly tired. I loose 5 pounds during the week. Once my period finishes, I feel better for a few days. My mood becomes more positive, I gain the weight back. Then I have a couple of days of feeling not only better, but great. I have energy, patience with my children. Then I guess my body starts to get ready for the next period, and I feel absolutely horrible. So low I cant believe I felt so good the day before. Normal household tasks seem so enormous I dont know where to start. I shout at my kids. I feel overwhelmed by absolutely everything. I just want to sit on the sofa and do nothing, but this is also accompanied by anxiety-like feelings, the jitters and I feel like my heart is beating way too fast. I know that I'm being a terrible mother and this makes me feel more anxious, which only makes me act like a worse mother. I feel like this for a couple of days, and then I get my period and it all starts again.
At first I just brushed it off thinking it would just take my body a while to get used to not breastfeeding, after doing it continuously for so long. But right now, I feel like it is ruining my life. I have a happy life, with no major stresses, I enjoy taking of my children and I love my husband. But some of the days in this cycle I feel so low, so withdrawn, so tired and so like I could just give up, that it is really scary to me and I dont want to feel like this anymore.
So you have the whole information, I am on birth control- it is called Nexplanon. It is the kind that is like a little rod in my arm. I have had it 2.5 years now, and I will need to change it in the next 6 months.
I'm sorry to dump all of this on you. But thank you for listening!