M - posted on 01/11/2016 ( 8 moms have responded )
I am back on here which it has been a long time. I am a single mother of an 11 year old boy. I have been on my own since day one. I had no real help/support system back in my home town of Ohio so I left and moved to Atlanta, GA where it has been no pleasant ride either. I have had the worse experiences of my life happen to me alone in Atlanta. I refuse to go back to my hometown since I am establishing my life here. Plus there was no support system there nor here so it'll be pointless to go backwards anyway. Anyway, my son was diagnosed with adhd and has recently started his medications that I denied for several years because I still don't believe in any of this crap that people have come up with nowadays. But report cards came out and he got straight F's. He has only been on the meds for 2 weeks. I am lost for words because he didn't have grades like this ever. I'm confused on what more I can do because I already have placed my life on hold and have experienced enough setbacks to the point where I don't even know if I'll ever be who I want to be or get to where I'd like to be in my life because I have to focus all of my attention on my son. I'm not saying I don't do that now, but its becoming so much for me because I already receive no help no support so its kind of life me giving up on anything I want to do to better our lives because I have to take care of his needs first. And OF COURSE, I know what is important, but I am already a pessimistic person, so every setback or disappointment that I've encountered has made me discouraged and wanting to give up on anything I had planned for my future to excel. I am already a negative, bitter person at the fact that I have no help and not very trusting of anyone due to the many challenges I've had since I've been in Georgia. Its like continue to make sure my son is great but I'm mentally and socially horrible. I want great things in my life but just can't reach them now because I have to focus more on my child. Like when will I ever get to where I dream of being? Why is it I have to put my dreams on hold again? If I could give more details I would but don't care to share much more. I already emailed his teacher and asked if we can talk about the report card further. He has an IEP, and a therapist, and our family therapist. It's like who else do I need in my business to help if we have everyone now? I work full-time, so yes when I get home from work I am so tired and want to just curl up in my bed but I have to hear mommy this and then going over homework, then dinner, its like I'm at my wits end. I've read so many blogs, prayed and I still feel like $hit at the end of the day. In my head it'll never get better. If it was going to, it sure would have presented itself a long time ago to give me some type of hope. Any more suggestions.....maybe?