Lauren - posted on 05/22/2012 ( 4 moms have responded )
My pregnancy didn't start out normally at all. Went to the doctor with very very bad stomach pain and my husband and I found out I was pregnant. I was then put in the hospital because they thought I was having a ectopic pregnancy. After refusing to let the doctors do anything until I seen my OBGYN they released me. Went to see my ob the next day and Found out I had a cyst on my ovary. Which was the cause to the cramping...At this time he told me everything was fine....Fast forward to my 11 weeks. Woke up at 3:30am to go use the restroom and felt a BIG gush. When I got to the bathroom I was bleeding. Called the doctor on call and he told me to wait till my doctors office opens then go in. A hour and a half later I started passing blood clots. I knew At that time that I had lost my baby. I went in to see my doctor and he told me that I lost the baby at 10 weeks. I had to come home to my 2 year old son. And act like nothing had happened and be super mom. It has now been a month. And it feels like it was yesterday. My son still wants to kiss the baby in my tummy. I cry myself to sleep. I have this unbelievable empty feeling. That my husband doesn't understand. So I find my self not talking to him about any of this. My doctor has me taking anxiety meds. Which I have never had to take before, I seem to be blaming my self more and more. Im just having a really hard time moving past this.