Jennifer-heasley - posted on 01/09/2013 ( 3 moms have responded )
I'm apologizing ahead of time because I haven't really been able to talk to anyone, so I might go on a rant, so I'm sorry. I was diagnosed with Postpartum Depression very soon after having my third baby (who is currently 4 months old) but after hearing about all the symptoms and feelings I have come to believe I could have possibly had it for my other children who are 3 and 2. The doctor prescribed me Zoloft and it took away a lot of the suicidal and violent thoughts, it didn't take away the depression. I saw a therapist for awhile and that helped a little but I was only able to see the therapist for 6 visits and am unable to pay for any visits by myself and do not qualify for any low income assistance that will help out with more therapy. Since giving birth my 30 year old husband has been going through like a mid life crisis or something. He started texting another woman at the hospital after I gave birth, he told me he doesn't know who he is as a person, he tells me that he wants to leave me, he said that he doesn't want to have to take care of me and anytime I feel like I need to talk about my stuff or I need support he gets mad because we aren't talking about his depression or how he is feeling. So support from him isn't there and the only reason I brought that up is because he is moving out in February and I will be alone most the time from Sunday night to Saturday morning with the kids and Im afraid all the stress will make things worse on me. My youngest doesn't sleep through the night and as a result I don't really sleep much and I don't know how the older kids will act once he is gone. I don't really have anyone that wants to help me out really. I have family, I have friends but none of them have really been there for me in regards to the postpartum and the kids.