Donna - posted on 03/24/2015 ( 61 moms have responded )
I know most people say, once a cheat always a cheat. My husband and I have been married 21 1/2 years. We have two kids, age 16 and 13. Over the last 8 - 10 years, he has cheated on me numerous times. We have had counseling, which he cheated while we were in counseling. He says my harshness towards him made him reach out, but I have told him 'maybe so, but it was HIS choice to sleep with them. He has lied to me so much that I know I will never trust him again. I will always have doubts. Two years ago, I had him served with a divorce. After 6 months, I just felt in my heart to ask him if he wanted to fight for our marriage. He said yes. Well, you guessed it, he cheated while he was supposed to be fighting. Why am I still here? I truly love him and I have forgiven him. I don't want to start over with someone else. I want the man I married. No, I am not financially dependent on him. I actually bring home the bacon. I struggle with should I walk away or stay. Our 13 year old son really looks to his dad for bonding. I'd like our kids to have both mom & dad around. I told him today, if I'm not enough for him, then let me go. I also said we can start a countdown...4 more years, then our kids will be in college. I don't want to hear 'how stupid I am for staying', I really want some heartfelt advice. No I have never cheated on him and never will. I will not stand before God to justify 'getting revenge'. Thoughts?