Candice - posted on 10/09/2012 ( 2 moms have responded )
My husband and I both have children from other marriages. I have a 7 year old and he has an 11 and 16 year old. Before we got married I knew he did not want any more children and I really thought that I was okay with it. After a lot a thought and prayer, being with him and not having a child with him meant so much more to me than not having him in my life and havign a child with someone else. It came down to the fact that I wanted his child, not any child. That being said, we got married and I consider myself very blessed. I have an amazing family. I do still have a void or an emptiness that I can't seem to fill. I never thought I could love someone so much that I would NEED to share every aspect of life with him. Both of his children were conceived without his knowlege with his ex-wife and I just can't help but to feel resement towards her for not only having part of my husband that I will never have, but also for taking that opportunity away from me to be able to share every part of my love for him, with him. He says that he dosen't want anymore children, but can't tell me why. I think it would be easier for me to accept if I understood, but he just can't say why. I have gone through counseling and medication and i will be fine for a while, but when I get depressed about it, it gets really bad and I feel guilty for putting him through it. I don't nag him about it, but he knows whats wrong. I love him with all of my heart and I don't want to let this get between us in any way. I need help getting over this opsticle. Any advice?