Natory - posted on 09/17/2015 ( 9 moms have responded )
We have been together for almost 5 years now and he has pretty much cheated since we first got together, more emotionally just on the internet or using his phone. When I was 8 months pregnant with our first daughter he took off and left me for some girl he had been talking to on and off using his phone for years. I broke and he came back the day I got home from the hospital with our new born. Things were shaky for me for months and I thought things were ok but he was still talking to other girls. Our daughter is gonna be 2 next month and I'm due with our second daughter in December but it still seems like he can't stop hurting me. He says he wants to change and wants to be a better man for us but I just feel like I can't trust him anymore. Its getting worse for me now that I am having nightmares that are causing anxiety and depression because of what happened in the past. I don't know what to do we have been struggling for a long time financially and having to live with family in one room with our daughter. We are hoping to get a house next year but I'm scared that he won't stop. It has hurt me so much especially because of things that have happened in my past. But I don't know why he keeps doing these things to me. I have been doing my best and trying my hardest for all of us but it never seems to be good enough. I am just starting to break again.