Mbali - posted on 02/04/2014 ( no moms have responded yet )
Hello Moms. My nAme is Mbalie. I had a child in 2010 that I didn't plan to have and I was 19 years old and was in highschool. I was very scared of what my parents would do if I tell them, so I kept my pregnancy a secret until I gave birth to a pre-mature baby of 7 months. I didn't go for check ups while I was pregnant and didn't give the best care for myself. I haven't been able to forgive myself for that and I blame myself for my baby's death. If I went for regular check ups like all mothers do when pregnant, maybe my baby would've been alive. I didn't have enough money to take my child to the best hospitals. So we went to a government hospital and still didn't get the best treatment there which led to my daughter catching pneumonea. I lost my child in 2010 but it still feels like yesterday. I can't seem to move on and this is affecting my love life. I'm even afraid of having a child again EVER. Please help. I just want to know how I can overcome this pain.