Ume Ammara - posted on 10/09/2011 ( 6 moms have responded )
I had my first baby in April 2006 at 34+5 days. I ve developed high bp in 28th week and then had him premature as he was not gaining weight and docs decided for c section. My baby was only 1.75 kg but healthy otherwise but when he was 5 days old he developed an infection and was sent back to incubator. Now at 5 yrs of his age we know that he had a stroke as a baby b4 or after birth and lost his vision...he has very low vision.
These all yrs been so frightening for me and i always thought of being responsible for all what happened to him... Now I m pregnant again at the age of 35.. I cant tell how panicked i am... i m 5 weeks and have no courage to go to Gyn and get my bp checked... I ve developed severe phobia for bp after my son's birth ..I know its really important to visit the Gyn but dont know what shd i do about my fear . I just cant go thru again what happenned to me before...Can anyone share his experince and suggest me what shd i do now?