Alona - posted on 01/08/2014 ( 10 moms have responded )
So (sigh) let’s see where do I begin?
I am reaching out for advice for a very sticky situation. I am currently a newly single mom. My fiancé and I recently split up due to miscommunication and other things that I shall explain. You see we have the most 2 beautiful girls ages 2 and 7months and he wants to be able to see them. However I am not comfortable sending my children almost 2 hours away without me. The reason for this is because he is very abusive; mentally, physically, emotionally, and verbally. I have been called out my name so many times, all the bad names you can call a woman I have been called and the reason is various and mostly because of his anger and jealousy issues. I have been punched in the face, strangled while pregnant, thrown drinks at, spit at, accused of “f***ing” other men (which I haven’t), accused of those children not being his (they are or he wouldn’t have agreed to be on the birth certificate). I can’t talk to him he will just spin out of control and call me this that and the other but oh “I need to see my kids” He has recently been dating another girl who is quite young (we are both 26) but he never calls to see how they are doing, hasn’t provided from them financially for almost 2 months (which by the way he barley did) but has the nerve to pay $50 every month to have his phone turned on and pays for him and her to go out to eat, but he wants to see them but hasn’t called or sent anything for them. I pay for all their child care expenses, diapers, wipes, doctors’ visits, and when they cry at night it’s all me, I may get 2-4 hours of sleep a day but yet he wants to see them and I haven’t gotten ANY help. He is currently supposed to be paying child support this month yet I haven’t seen anything or heard from him. I work full time and I come home and work full time with my girls. I don’t go out or hang out it’s my work and girls 24/7. I am no longer allowed at his mother’s house (that’s where he lives…I have my own place) because he says that he will “feel” miserable if I am around”, but I just don’t feel comfortable with sending my girls without me and whoever he may be involved with. They are my life and if something were to happen to them, the only person that I would blame would be me. He has a warrant out for his arrest because of the abuse and my oldest daughter saw him throw me down when I was three months pregnant with my now 7month old. My oldest has even cussed me out because she repeats what he says. I can’t get mad at her; she has no idea what those words mean. So all I can tell her is “those are bad words that daddy says and we can’t use them they hurt people”. He hasn’t seen his children or has bothered to come see them but what gets me is that he just doesn’t even call to ask about them. This whole experience is really overwhelming. He hasn’t sacrificed much of anything so that we could be a family. I take care of our children to the best of my ability with the little resources that I have because of his lack and support. I thank GOD for my parents because without them I wouldn’t know how I would get formula or pay for child care week to week. And the reason for the miscommunication was because I called and was just telling him that I need help for him, I'm drained. And all he could say was “we are no longer together, tell your problems to someone else” but sadly 2 hours before that conversation he told me that he loved me and that I was a great mother to his children. It’s kind of confusing. And so till this day I am nothing more to him as “scum” and a “bitch”
Am I wrong for not sending them up there? I just need to know.