I can't breastfeed...help.

Melanie - posted on 08/14/2010 ( 73 moms have responded )

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I read all the books, ate the right foods and did what my doctor said to do. But after I had my baby girl, I was trying to breastfeed (cause that was my plan) and I didn't understand why she wasn't latching on. Well I went through all this drama with my baby not doing what she was "expected" to do and The nurses were getting angry at me because I wasn't trying hard enough to help her breastfeed. Well I came to find out at my 5 day pediatrician appointment that I wasn't producing anything! not even colostrum. I was so upset and I felt like the worst mother because I couldn't do what I'd tried so hard to do and I couldn't feed my own baby. So we go a pump but it didn't work and so she's been on formula ever since. I need help because even after five months, I still get those looks from people like, "oh you just gave up" or "you did something wrong to cause this."

I'm at a loss at what to say to those people and how to not beat myself up for not being able to breastfeed my baby.

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Brooke - posted on 08/17/2010

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I had a hard time with my first, and ended up pumping for 8 months to give her breastmilk in a bottle, (she never would latch, no matter how hard I tried.) To be honest with you, I now regret doing all of that pumping. I gave in to the current pressure to breastfeed, and spent 3+ hours a day on the pump, while plopping the baby in front of baby einstein so she wouldn't fuss. In retrospect, I wish I would have given her formula sooner, and held her in my arms all day long - would have been better for both of us. I'm about to have my second, and if she won't latch, I am ignoring all of the pressure and not giving into the guilt - a well-loved, formula fed baby is a lucky one!! So please don't feel bad - go enjoy that little bundle!

Sue - posted on 09/30/2012

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Why is there this insistence that all of us have a choice. I have never produced any milk but have still managed to bring up 3 healthy children using formula. The aim is surely healthy, happy children but certainly if you are lucky to be able to breast feed this is a bonus but please let's stop discrimination against those of us who are less fortunate.

Merry - posted on 08/16/2010

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lets not have this attitude of "formula is just fine"

We need to suport those who tried yes, but there is rarely ever a reason why formula is necessary, and while we cant judge moms who tried their hardest, we can not have this attitude of how awesome formula is.



There are serious short term and long term risks for both mom and baby when formula is used so we cant try to turn it into some sort of perfect option.

It isnt ideal, and it has its place for those who truely need it but it is WAY overused and our next generations will suffer from the amount of them who are not being fed properly.

Formula is adequate for growth but it offers no immune system support, no healing qualities, nothing for the reduction of cancer, nothing for the development of the eyes and brain and IQ, there is unhealthy sugars and high amounts of hormones in formula and it also has many side effects for some babies.

It is not and equal or a next in line food.

It is necessary for some babies to survive but it shouldnt be a choice taken lightly. You may not see the effects in 3-5-10 years but there are so many health conditions that formula fed babies are at higher risk for.

Support yes, she tried as hard as she could at the time. But we cant go praising formula like it is good for babies.

We need to try to improve the nutrition of our kids and formula wont do that.

Please support her but dont make it sound like there is nothing wrong with formula.





(go ahead and dissagree with me, tell me how healthy your kids are, tell me all your reasons to formula feed but please dont be rude, and back it up with facts)

Tanya - posted on 08/16/2010

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People will always have their judgements, whether verbalized or not. Try to hold on to your own knowledge that you have done all that you can. Lots of babies have been exclusively formula fed (sometimes by choice, not by neccessity) and have turned out just fine. What matters is the love you give in those bonding moments of feeding.

Adeline - posted on 08/15/2010

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I was a flop at breastfeeding my first child,I still don't know why. However I was successful with the other eight. You are not a bad mom. If you get pregnant again consult a good, non-judgemental lactation consultant before the baby comes. YOU CAN ONLY DO WHAT YOU CAN.

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Jackienakangu - posted on 12/12/2016

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i went thru just the same, it hurts when people think u do not want to breastfeed yo baby and start passing on judgement. i cud barely breastfeed thru the 3rd month. so i switched to milk, my baby is healthy and has not missed a single milestone., we are soon completing our 8th month of life.

Jessica - posted on 12/12/2016

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I was producing barely 1oz or less breast milk since my baby birth and nothing was going to help, but once started Healthy nursing tea I am successfully breastfeeding my son.

Leah - posted on 08/19/2010

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I was only able to breast feed my son for two months. I wanted to do it as long as possible but I just did not make enough milk. When he wasn't eating I was pumping. After the second month, i lost my milk. It was nothing I did, my body just was not producing any. There is nothing you can do. Just tell people that you tried. That you just couldn't produce any. It is really none of their business but I know what you are going through getting ridiculed. Just make sure you tell them all the things you went through to try to breast feed.

Annmarie - posted on 08/19/2010

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I am so sorry you have had to endure such judgment! It's hard enough adjusting your hopes! You did the very best you could for you and your baby! What a great Mom you are!

Christina - posted on 08/19/2010

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Don't beat yourself up for not being able to breastfeed. That same thing happened to me with my daughter I was only able to feed her three days and then my milk dried up. You did nothing wrong sometimes it happens to where a mother might not produce milk or if they can it is not good milk. And I tell you that there is nothing wrong with formula feed babies cause my daughter and son are doing exellent.

Kellie - posted on 08/19/2010

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Don't beat yourself up about it, it happens. I was one of those moms that chose not to breast feed just because I wasn't comfortable with the whole idea of it, but after I had my first I found out that even if I wanted to breast feed I couldn't because my kids are allergic to the whey proteins in it and had to be on soy or rice formula, and also I didn't produce much. You are not a bad mom because you weren't able to breast feed. Just try to ignore the looks from others, for all you know maybe they couldn't breast feed either, they don't know you so who are they to judge. You are doing the very best you can with what you were given. You shouldn't have to explain yourself to them either, just say to them if they ask that it is a really sensitive subject and you would rather not talk about it. Then hopefully they will be quiet about it, or just tell them it is none of there business and that you have a healthy happy baby and that is all that really matters. Good luck to you.

Samantha - posted on 08/18/2010

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Oh honey I am so sorry that this happened to you it sounds like you were really looking forward to breastfeeding. Don't care if other people are looking at you look back at them and tell them my milk didn't come in I would love to breastfeed this little baby. Also how do they not know that there is breastmilk not in those bottles. Hang in there and pray the next baby you will breastfeed and if not know that you are a strong woman and you care so much and if you really want to have your baby drink breastmilk there are milk banks out there!-Sam

Jenn - posted on 08/18/2010

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Breastfeeding gets positive feedback and negative feedback whether you BF or not. I I have been fortunate enough to be able to BF w/out problems however some people have issues with BF. Infact or 50% of people have issues with BF. Just know if your this worried about not being able to BF you are definitely a great mom who already wants the world for your little one. That is just a GOOD!

Jenn - posted on 08/18/2010

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Breastfeeding gets positive feedback and negative feedback whether you BF or not. I I have been fortunate enough to be able to BF w/out problems however some people have issues with BF. Infact or 50% of people have issues with BF. Just know if your this worried about not being able to BF you are definitely a great mom who already wants the world for your little one. That is just a GOOD!

Mary - posted on 08/18/2010

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You have NO reason to feel guilty. Even if you didn't even try to breastfeed (which you did) you still have no reason to feel guilty unless you aren't feeding your child AT ALL., which isn't the case.

Melissa - posted on 08/18/2010

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I couldn't either...I understand what you are feeling...Stay strong, and know you are doing the best you can! :)

Anna - posted on 08/18/2010

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poor you, i know lots of mums who cant breastfeed due to traumatic birhts, not producing enough milk and tongue tied babies. I breatfed my daughter but i am a firm believer it is what is best for you and your baby that counts. I have a friend who continues ot feed her baby even though she is not putting on enough weight. I think a healthy baby who is gaining weight makes a happy baby and a happy mother. I know 4 mothers this has happened to you, my advice is try to enjoy your baby breastfeeding is not always possible for everyone and some people feel unhappy doing it so try to be kind to yourself and give yourself a break.

Lisa - posted on 08/18/2010

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I breastfed my first for a year and when my second came along I didn't produce much milk. I breastfed and bottle fed so he got enough. I was just wondering the people who are judging you, have they all breastfed themselves? If it works out it is so wonderful, but when it doesn't work out it is frustrating We do the best we can as mothers and you already know that. As for "those people" anyone who judges is not worth your time anyway...

Katy - posted on 08/18/2010

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all i can say is that i had a very simarlar situation with me first born i as all set to breastfeed but after a bad labour i tried it for 4 days and could no longer cope with the pain as my daughter wasn't latching on properaly,i also tried a pump but found that i wasn't producing enough milk so went onto bottle and my daughter was much happier, i think alot of people are just looking at your child and not think oh she is bottle feeding her i think alot of it is guilt i know that i had a lot as i couldn't have th natraul birth i wanted and i was also put to sleep and didn't see my daughter till she was over an hour old which played on my mind and i too though people thought i was a bad mum, you have tried and that is all you can do, being a mum is not an easy job and we just have to try things till you get it right.

Joy - posted on 08/18/2010

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Don't beat yourself up honey. Try not to read into what isn't there when you feel people have a silent opinion. You didn't do anything wrong. Sometimes mother nature throws a curve for whatever reason, but you did exactly what you had to do ... she is eating, she is growing, I'm sure you are a better Mom than you think you are. All that really matters in the end is that she knows she has you who loves her like only a mother can.
Really, you are not the first mom to not be able to breast feed and you will not be the last. Don't care what others think. If you have to say something to them then tell them the truth ... if they have a problem with that then they obviously have not been in your situation or maybe they've never even been a mother.
Just take a deep breath and know you do what you have to do to take care of your daughter.
In the meantime, enjoy her for she is a reflection of your love and you will receive overwhelming love back and that's what counts.
I know what I'm talking about ... I'm a Mom to 5 daughters and 6 grands ... you're okay.

Kellie - posted on 08/17/2010

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Ignore them. It's nobody's business. Remember too, it's much better your daughter be on formula than starving! It's not your fault, and ignore the general public - this is the same group who will also glare at mothers for breastfeeding (OMG, boobs!) and you can never keep them happy.

Jacqueline - posted on 08/17/2010

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Not everything goes according to "our plan". Let people give you crazy looks...you did what you could, and you did try your very best. It is nothing to keep beating yourself up about. It is better to know that you were not producing and go to plan "b" so that your baby still gets all the valuable nutrition she needs. There is NO SHAME in it. Is she thriving, is she happy, is she loved???? That is whats most important !

Michelle - posted on 08/17/2010

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Whether you breastfeed or not is your business and yours alone....I breastfed my son for exactly 2 weeks unlike you I did have milk my son however couldn't tolerate the milk and it was making him sick so I switched to the bottle and formula and he turned into a happy healthy baby and is a thriving and healthy nine year old.....My daughter who is now 16 months only breastfed for one night I fed he the colostrum at the hospital but had already made the decision that I was not willing to go through the heartache of trying to breastfeed her as well I did pump for awhile but she too had an issue with my breast milk so we switched to the carnation goodstart formula that is supposed to be almost like mother milk and she flourished. It is not your fault if your body is unable to produce the milk not breastfeeding does not make you a bad parent you are still bonding with your child when you are feeding them you just know exactly how much they are eating and that can be a good thing. good luck

Amy - posted on 08/17/2010

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I had the same problem. I produced nothing at all, either, and I had the lactation specialists yelling at me, too, telling me I must be doing something wrong because every woman can breastfeed. I thought I was the only one who had the problem. My son was formula fed and his a strong 4 year old. Screw everyone with the negative attitude. Your daughter is happy and healthy and that is all that matters.

Sharon - posted on 08/17/2010

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have you tried mother's milk? pumping even if u donthave milk tea? drinking alot of water?

i bet u have tried alot and got frustrated but i bet ur an amazing mommy!!!! who tried to do everythng for her child!! :)

dont give up!!!

Nelly - posted on 08/17/2010

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Well don't worry on what people say and don't feel bad because I didn't breastfeed my son either and he is healthy as can be..and when they do ask just say she wouldn't latch on point blank..

Jessie - posted on 08/17/2010

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You tried and that is more than a lot of women can truthfully say. It does happen where a women can't physically breastfeed even with the best of intentions, it's sad but true. That being said I know you are a great mother for wanting to nurse and for feeling bad that you can't (that sounds weird I know) you need to let go of the guilt because you are doing the best job of raising your child and obviously you love her or you wouldnt even be worried about it. guilt (even over something silly or out of our hands) is one of those mom things that we just have to cope with I think. Other people have no right to judge you but they will and you just have to ignore them and know in your heart that you are a great mother. I thank the lord that I am able to nurse although we have had some real struggles in the last year and have had to supplement a bit. things happen but we have to make the best of them. keep your head up and be a proud, loving mommy, screw everyone else. also look into possible reasons for lack of milk and try again with your next child. sometimes it just doesnt work with one child and not another. I have heard of women not being able to nurse like a middle child but be able to produce for others. either know you're doing a good job! xoxo

Lindsey - posted on 08/17/2010

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I had this same problem and tried to breastfeed my youngest for a month until she had lost nearly two pounds and her doctor said NO MORE you have to supplement. I handled it like this- It really isn't any of your business, but it is NOT true what they say that everyone can breastfeed. I couldn't. I tried and did everything in my power to give my daughter the best start she could have and that is the best that I could do.

Not that it matters, but I honestly did. I breastfed her while supplementing her until she was four months and then she would not latch on anymore and then I pumped exclusively. I know baby gets more than the pump, but I could not even get a half an ounce pumping for 45 minutes 4 times a day. But I religiously mixed that half ounce in with her formula bottles until she was 7 months and I had to go back to work. I had tried all the herbal supplements, monitored my diet and wrote down everything I ate so I could show the lactation consultants (all three that I hired!), made sure I was drinking plenty of water, excercised, I did it all. My daughter is 4 now and she is perfectly healthy and beautiful and she never asks me why I didn't breastfeed her!

Merry - posted on 08/17/2010

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1-3% of women world wide can not produce milk. It sounds like most of that statistic have posted here!

Melanie ur daughter will love you sooo much as she can never find another who loves her as much as you do. Xoxo

Deborah - posted on 08/17/2010

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I had my daughter early, my body wasn't ready for the birth of a child just at that stage (34 weeks) I've also been told that because I had her through emergency c section that my body could have in fact assumed she had died..
The nurses in SCBU done nothing but pressure e to breastfeed, and I too had nothing coming out. I nearly had post natal depression because I felt so bad, first I couldn't carry her now I couldn't feed her, what kind of a mummy would I be etc.

I was offered tablets etc to get the milk going, but by then she was about 4 weeks old and I was getting sick of it. I told them I wasn't going to take pills to make something that I maybe wasn't supposed to do happen, and that she'd be fine on formula.

She's now a healthy, happy, smart, independant 3 year old, with a very happy mummy. I think that stopping that fight with a loosing battle was the best thing I ever done, Laura is thriving and our relationship didn't suffer a bit because of it, we are very close.

I know you feel bad that you couldn't breastfeed, but some women just can't, same as some women just can't have babies, its just one of those things. Your baby will do fine on formula, there is a lot of research gone into them.

Just ignore the idiots who don't know what their talking about and want to constantly put you down - I got shouted at when my baby was 6 months because a passer by decided that it was her business to inform me that a newborn baby shouldn't be sitting up in a pram!!!
Its none of their business, they don't know the story behind it, and if they want to judge without the facts then their judgement isn't worth the paper its wrote on ;)

Pick yourself up, think of all the other wonderful things you can and will provide for your child while she's growing up.

Try not to let it get you down, a formula fed baby with a happy mummy is 100x better than a breast fed baby with a depressed mum!

Lyn - posted on 08/17/2010

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First of all, your job is to love and provide for your baby. You are doing this. To all those people who look down their noses, tell them to mind their own business. You don't have to explain yourself to anyone. I was unable to breastfeed any of my kids and although I beat myself up over it I did not allow anyone else to give me attitude. Its easy to say well you should be doing this that or the other but at the end of the day you only have to answer to yourself.

Katherine - posted on 08/17/2010

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I hear ya! I tried my hardest to breastfeed and did for 4 months. My baby was tongue tied so feeding felt like razorblades to begin with until a month later my lactation consultant pointed out the tongue tie, which we got corrected straight away. I also haemhorraged badly with my daughter and was in and out of hospital for the first month, but I tried and tried and tried. Then at 4 months, my baby got so distracted while feeding, it was all a big game to her, she wouldn't take a full feed no matter how hard I tried. She wouldn't take a bottle either. I didn't know what else to do! I finally found a bottle that she would take, and topped her up with fornula after every breast feed. Then she got constipated. I decided to give up on breastfeeding all together, it was exhausting trying so hard and failing all the time. Then I felt guilty for not breastfeeding her when I was still making milk, like I was ripping her off. But then I got over it! She's no longer underweight, I know exactly how much she's getting and although I agree breast is best, formula has so many good things in it too! I just wish my body had decided for me, it would have been so much easier to cope with than what I went thru! Don't feel bad, at least you know your baby is happy, healthy and satisfied!!!

Liz - posted on 08/17/2010

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I had exactly the same problem. I did not produce any milk either. I can promise you its nothing you did or didn't do. It was somthing I longed to do. He latched on fine and was trying wiht all his might to feed. And in fact for the first couple of days not even the nurses knew he was not feeding as he latched on for about 45 mins a time, and never made any signs that he was hungry. It was like you at my check up that they said he needed to be put on formula. Even though my body could not feed him, I still could. He craved the close cuddles at feeding time that you can get with either a bottle or breast.

As for the looks off others, well there is several ways round this. First and the hardest ignor them. That is your child and you feed them how is best for you. Second, if anyone says anything be blunt with them.Tell them why you HAVE to use bottle, and that you would prefer to do that than keep trying to the breast and starking your child. They soon shut up. Third is, tell them it is breast milk that you pumped that morning. No one can tell by seeing it in the bottle if it breast or formula.

As long as you are happy and your child fed, what else matter. You are still providing what your child need just in a different way. And different is never wrong. If its the skin to skin you miss you can still do that. Set a time a side for somthing like that. Or have a bath with your baby.

You sounds like a fantastic mum, and worrying comes with the job. But caarry on loving your child and being there for them and thats all they need.
x

Rebeca - posted on 08/17/2010

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Babe you have done the best thing for your baby. You have made sure she is getting the sustenance that she needs. Don't worry about those people. I used to worry that people were looking at me breast feeding and think I was a bad mother for feeding in public. Now he takes a bottle and I wonder if people think I should be breast feeding. They are probably not the 'looks' you think they are. Just know you are doing the best thing by yourself and your baby.

Danielle - posted on 08/16/2010

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I had a very hard time breastfeeding my kids too. Here's the thing..They are still bonding with you even with a bottle. Do you want to know something completely amazing? Your baby still loves you more than anything, whether or not you're breastfeeding. Ignore the looks. These people don''t know your situation, nor is it any of their business, and you definitely do not owe anyone an explanation. The first time My oldest had to have a bottle was in the hospital because I wasn't making enough colostreum. The nurse took him to warm him up and feed him and I cried. I felt terrible too. But as I was leaving, a nurse said to me 'I have never seen a baby look at their mom the way he looks at you. He is completely in love' It made me feel so much better. So remember that next time someone gives you a look, just smile, because you're baby loves you all the same, and the difference between the bottle and the breast will never change that.

Linda - posted on 08/16/2010

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Run, don't walk, to your nearest La Leche League meeting. They will do everything possible to help and encourage you. Don't let others talk you into giving up, if this is something that is important to you. But if, in the end, it doesn't work this time, just don't assume it won't work if you have another baby.
Good luck and best wishes.

Charlie - posted on 08/16/2010

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I dont think its very productive to post all those negatives in a thread where the mother is clearly already feeling terrible regardless of whether they are true , lets have a little sympathy after all she sounds as if she tried her hardest and thats all her baby could ask for .

Charlie - posted on 08/16/2010

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I had the same issue , no colostrom , no milk luckily mine did come in eventually but my son had to be supplemented with formula .

Dont feel bad Melanie , you tried your best and thats all you can do better to give them formula than starve , it really is no one elses business anyway .

I know how you feel because i was devastated when i was told i had nothing , just try and work past the guilt because a happy mummy makes for a happy child !

Nikki - posted on 08/16/2010

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First of all mind my language FUCK what everyone else thinks, it is your baby and you did what needed to be done and you fed your child. I too wanted to BF and I too produced no milk, no colostrum, NOTHING, I changed my diet I saw specialists and had them yell at me and treat me like hell and also tell me it was okay to wait and that my son was fine without food....... I would have starved him to death. Formula wasnt my first choice, but it being the only choice was the best choice and to be honest, I couldnt be happier with that decision. My son THRIVED off formula, he grew into a big strong super healthy advanced little boy. He was never gassy, never really got sick til daycare. Because he gained weight so well he was so strong and sturdy he reached all his milestones early. And he slept through the night at 4 weeks old. I will tell everyone it was the best thing for him. Most of my gfs never produced enough milk anyways and had to supplement with formula because their babies were not gaining sufficient weight.
You put in the effort and you tried, it wasnt your fault that it didnt work out so you really need to stop beating yourself up over it. Who cares what other people think, let them think what they will and if they open their mouths simply tell them that starving your baby wasnt an option. Every mother decides what is best for their child and it is best, believe in yourself. I was bottle fed so was my brother and we turned out perfect. Formula is available for a reason and what other choice did you have!!

Helen - posted on 08/16/2010

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First of all, it's no one's business how you feed your child. If someone has the audacity to say or look at you in a disrespecting way, then you certainly have the right to tell them to mind there own business (or anything else that you really want to say to them.) That being said, stop beating yourself up. Every one is different. Not everyone can breast feed. I also tried and failed. I produced very little milk. I swear I would breast feed for 30 to 40 minutes and then have to feed my babies (I have twins) a full bottle of formula. And before you think that it was because I had twins, it wasn't. My sister had twins and solely breast fed them. SOME PEOPLE JUST DON"T PRODUCE ANY OR ENOUGH BREAST MILK NO MATTER WHAT WE DO! I know, people make you feel like your doing something wrong, YOUR NOT!!! Your formula fed baby will be perfect! Oh yeah, and come to find out, my mother couldn't breast feed either, she just didn't produce enough either. YOU HAVE DONE NOTHING WRONG!!! Congratulations, btw!

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http://worldbreastfeedingweek.net/wbw200...

as i said, formula is an important invention but its use has backfired, now it is seen as a casual option where most moms dont even know the truth about its side effects.
Please know I am not trying to accuse anyone of anything. My own brother was formula fed and I love him with all my heart. I know he is healthy as possible but I wish he could be better, you know? I dont want moms to not know this stuff and regret it later. Knowledge is power and the formula companies are making sure we dont know much of anything about their product.

Christina - posted on 08/16/2010

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Seriously it's up to the mother to feed their child right? and if they baby isn't getting enough breast milk than we have no choice but to top them up with formula. It's really nobody's business what you chose or didn't choose to do. Keep it simple and if you really need to tell people that you weren't producing enough milk that's okay. Were you under a lot of stress? I've had three children that I have nursed and my 3rd was just as difficult as my 1st. I went through the same struggle and more so with my 3rd because it turns out that he was tongue-tied. Don't beat yourself up. You're doing a good job mom...just stay positive and don't let anyone make you feel like you aren't taking care of that babe...and you did try!!

Yessica - posted on 08/16/2010

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point is u tried! and yes its non of their business. Your a great mother no matter what!

Josie - posted on 08/16/2010

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It shouldn't matter what other people think. The point is, you did your best & you didn't give up. You TRIED!!! Those people with the looks & remarks were fortunate to not have gone through what you had gone through. People should not talk or eyeball you unless they've been in your shoes. Head UP mommy! You did your best, you gave it your all... Lucky baby to have a mommy like you!

Alison - posted on 08/16/2010

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How disappointing! The most important thing is for you to let go of the guilt you are feeling. Once you have come to terms with it, you will be much stronger towards the judgement of others.

Just remember, the most important thing is a stable, loving environment. Breast may be best, but the formula is pretty darn good!

Rosie - posted on 08/16/2010

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why is it anybody's business what you do with your kid? when i first started to breastfeed i hated it, felt he was starving, my nipples were BLOODY, the nurses were shitty, and i felt like the most horrible mother in the world. i mean, it's supposed to be natural, and normal and wonderful right? after i gave him a bottle, i FINALLY got to enjoy my son, i didn't feel so helpless, and he was HAPPY. i realized that, who gives a shit, certainly not my son. he's 10 now, and his 2 formula fed brothers (i didn't even try with them, didn't want to go through that again) are perfectly fine. i can't think of a person that would be upset that their parents fed them formula. what is important to the child is that they had a loving nurturing mom, and as long as you continue loving your child, that's all that matters. :)

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Don't feel guilty! You're doing your absolute best for your little girl and she'll love you for it.

Christel - posted on 08/15/2010

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I feel for you because I wanted to breast feed my oldest son too but when he came out he had to go the NICU it was horrible and he could not latch on with all effort I tried then I started to breast pump and that was working very well until two weeks later when I got an breast infection I cried so much but my second child was much better I really bonded with my second! dont give hope for the next child! Your child is healthy right be happy! Nobody should make you feel at bad about what happened!

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Don't worry about "other people", you did the best you could and that's all that matters. I have a friend that couldn't nurse so she pumped every ounce of milk her son drank for an entire year. When her second son was born, he nursed just fine!

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My other comment is also: If Mummy isnt happy... NO ONE IS HAPPY!!! Right now you are the only one that the baby wants... wether it is breastfed or formula. To take care of the baby better you need to be in a better frame of mind. Positive additude will give you positive results with your baby.
Although I breastfed my 1st, I stopped after 3 months as it was too much for me. I was miserable, emotional, depressed and NOT enjoying this SUPPOSED magical moment of feeding my child. Once I switched to formula I was happier.... thus also making my 1st happier too. She was a completly different baby once I switched.
DONT be afraid. You know what is right for your baby!!!

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I felt exactly the same way! I had to stop breastfeeding my son when he was 6 days old because my milk didn't come in (the same thing happened to my mam so the doctors think it could be genetic). I was devastated and still miss the bonding of breastfeeding. There was no choice but to switch him to formula as he was readmitted into hospital into the neonatal unit with severe jaundice and dehydration. He required a drip and light therapy. We only found out that my milk hadn't come in when I tried to pump as they were gonna feed him by tube. I will try with my next child but right now I'm just glad Logan's fit, well and gaining weight =] He dropped from 6lb12oz to 5lb9oz at the time and now at 8 months old he weighs 18lb2.5oz =]

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Have you tried hormone supplements?.... don't beat yourself up if you can't, it isn't your fault, and your baby will be just fine. :)

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Please don't feel bad :( You tried very hard. Cheer up! You were a great mommy from the start!

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I did the same thing with my oldest son. I felt like such a failure b/c I couldn't provide for him, or so I thought. We put him on formula and he did wonderful. We still bonded while he drank his bottle. Remember, it's what you think and know that matters and your baby will love you regardless!

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