Melanie - posted on 08/14/2010 ( 73 moms have responded )
I read all the books, ate the right foods and did what my doctor said to do. But after I had my baby girl, I was trying to breastfeed (cause that was my plan) and I didn't understand why she wasn't latching on. Well I went through all this drama with my baby not doing what she was "expected" to do and The nurses were getting angry at me because I wasn't trying hard enough to help her breastfeed. Well I came to find out at my 5 day pediatrician appointment that I wasn't producing anything! not even colostrum. I was so upset and I felt like the worst mother because I couldn't do what I'd tried so hard to do and I couldn't feed my own baby. So we go a pump but it didn't work and so she's been on formula ever since. I need help because even after five months, I still get those looks from people like, "oh you just gave up" or "you did something wrong to cause this."
I'm at a loss at what to say to those people and how to not beat myself up for not being able to breastfeed my baby.