Licia - posted on 04/12/2017 ( 11 moms have responded )
I've been single for over ten years after a horrible abusive relationship, that he still denies til this day...but secure with my so called alcoholism to justify his insanity.... I had to get out. My youngest was 3 at the time and it broke my heart and my oldest at the time was 18. " We" decided that it would be better if they stayed in Va bc of opportunities and to be honest I just wanted to stop going in violent circles and carve out a place of my own. Years and seasons passed and in that space I was seeing my boys less and the hostility remained which is still deliberate today 15yrs later. Now my grown son won't pick his ass up and tow the line and get out on his own, since making bad mistakes trying to party it up with his college drop out friends(roommates) in Va and got evicted. He has been living w me since, for over a year, just got laid off from job I found for him, smokes weed all day and night and thinks he's gonna be fit to stand another interview and drug test. My other son who lives with his father and his new family insists he's too busy to see his Mother. This cycle of hell has been going on far too long and I need a break or I'm gonna break. I have lost all desire for relationships... all I do is work and come home, cook watch tv and pray for my breakthrough.