Louise - posted on 05/28/2013 ( 1 mom has responded )
words cant express the love i have for my 7month old baby girl!! shes the most amazing thing to have ever happened to me, with these big blue and this wonderful big smile! Shes perfect!! but when she cries for no obvious reason or when I need to finish something else first but she demands my attention I can I sometimes (not all the time) get quickly frustrated. This shows in my abruptness to pick her up or put her down (I have never and will never hurt her) or in my body language that shows her I'm annoyed! and although I've never yelled or shouted at her sometimes my voice can be firm and frustrated as if I'm telling her off and not the calming motherly tone she needs whens shes crying! She's only a baby what am I doing!! I don't' do it all the time but started when she was little during those long breast feeding nights but now I am beginning to do this more regularly and it worries me terribly!! but if it worries me why do I keep doing it?! I feel terrible after and cuddle her and kiss her promising ill do better and will never get annoyed at her again but then I do!! Please help as I feel I'm such a bad mum and doing a bad job and just want whats best for her! I need to change as I don't want her to be brought up with an easily frustrated and stressed mum. she's my life and I just want whats best for her but right now I know I'm not giving that to her!