Lanie - posted on 10/23/2012 ( 5 moms have responded )
I woke up this morning to the smell of cigerette smoke ...which i thought was odd , but figured that maybe someone was smoking next door to me and the smell came in through my open window.
But i did make a comment of ' why does it smell like smoke in here?' when i first woke up..
Within minutes my daughter broke down crying , and said ' ok ok ..it was ME!' ..
I just looked at her and said ' are you serious??"
The look on her face told me she was.
I don't know what to do , i don't know who to punish worse ..me for smoking in the first place , or her for being a child and doing what children do????
I had a very long talk with her , i held her ...i cried ..i just sat there in shock.
I asked her how many time's she has done this , she said not many ..than she switched to she just did it once this morning ...and then back to ' i dont know how many times '...
I asked her to show me where the cigerette was that she was smoking ..and she took me out to the balcony and showed me the smoke that she had smoked , and she looked like she had just lit it and smoked a bit of it and then put it out..which scares the crap out of me because i have always told her not to touch lighters ...and she has told me so many times that she would never ever smoke!!
She has been grounded from everything for a week...as for me , i stop smoking TODAY.
All lighter's and ashtrays will be taken off my balcony and thrown out , my smokes will go in the garbage as well.
She finally told me that she has only done it a couple of times within the month ...but as far as im concerned ONCE didn't need to happen at all!!!!
I blame myself ....i have tried to quit so many time's ...and i always go to stress to continue to smoke ,which i now know was so wrong
I sat her down and told her that i didn't want her smoking at all, that it was not something that she should be doing and that i know i am not leading a good example and that i will no longer be smoking.
I feel like i failed as a parent :(